Might be farfetched, but I can't help but wonder. This last semester I gained more buds than I ever did in the last five years I've been in school. Now, I may start to sound like an egotist when I say this, but that is not my intention. For the first time ever, I'm popular. I run my own show, but anyone who's anyone knows who I am. It's scary. It's gotten to a point where if I'm MIA people start asking where I ran off to. I'm more worried when the time comes where people start searching for my whereabouts.
Most of this I think stems from how I hold myself. I'm perceived to be this strong and independent woman with her own thoughts and opinions. I'm terrified most of the time and that's what people don't see. If someone were to dig deep enough, they'd see how scared I am. I don't let my vulnerabilities show and I'm certain that's one of the reasons people are attracted to me.
I remain a mystery to a lot of the group and this semester I'll be putting that to the test. I'm breaking off from the main group and going my own way. There was so much drama last time that I don't want to be part of it. Might call it my mystery bubble.
Plus, I'll be dressing nicer most days or have a professional look about myself. That might draw more people in now that I think about it. The attractibility would skyrocket.
I guess wait and see.