I don't know how much I weigh now. Most likely still some 200 lbs, but anyway. It doesn't look like I'm that heavy. I've lost another half an inch, so now my waist, estimate, is about 32-34 inches? I think it might be less than that. I have a fairly active job that allows me to continue to loose the pounds... But there's another thing that is causing the rapid loss.
The depression is back.
I'm not eating or not as much as I should and my household is getting worried especially my mum-in-law. She was the first to notice that my habits had changed and then I slowly crept back to feeling like nothing. I've done what I can to keep it down. It's been about five years since my last full blown attack. It flares up when my gf is being an ass or doing whatever to make me feel like shit. I can't bing it up to her or she says that I need to go on pills. I really don't need pills. I managed to be pill-free for five years. She'd think I'm being silly or tell me to see a shrink.
Lately, things haven't been good with us. I'm beginning to feel extremely lonely. School is another thing that's been talked about. Deep down I know she didn't want me to go back and anytime I bring up that school is important, she get's so pissy. I mean, it's to a point where it feels like I have to choose between her and school. These next two weeks are going to be very important school days... And I'm probably going to miss them.
Car needs to be fixed [second one] and that's going to the shop some half hour to forty-five minuets away. Her uncle says he's going to fix it for cheeper. There's a garage not even five minuets away that I called and they'd fix everything wrong with it for $870. And I don't even know how we are getting back. She works at 3pm and I don't know how long it will take for this car to be fixed. To bring it would be either a Monday or Tuesday when she doesn't work. Mondays are hell at school.
I already planned on staying home from school on a Wednesday while mum-in-law and her bf are on holiday. That's when my bro-in-law would be home alone. Plus, gf has no way of getting to work, so I'm screwed either way. All in all I'd be missing almost a week of school .___. My teacher are no going to be happy. I've missed a few classes already. One was for personal reasons, the other was because... gf didn't have a ride to work.
So, a wonder why I'm so depressed?